Far too long since I made a journal

But here I am writing one.

Lotta memories here on DA. Some of the best ones in my life. So many wonderful people with new points of view, So many talented artist that I tried to learn from. And some people that became more to me than just random usernames that I saw through a screen. But that feels so far away now. Like a section of my young adult life that is just a memory. I don't use this site anymore. I lost all drive to draw in general. I feel as if I have to force myself just to put pencil to paper, and no longer do I feel as confident in my abilities as I used to.

In fact as I grow older I feel less proud of the drawings I did put up here. I don't feel as if I was really deserving of the praise I received. I did have an eye for detail and I was very skilled in my pencil work. But as for the things that I chose to draw, I simply chose to emulate styles that were appealing to me at the time. It doesn't feel right to me now. When I look at them I think, "This isn't me." until I get to Guardian Angel. (An amateur webmanga I made that no longer is on DA.) I truly feel like that was my own. And though I still wish to one day put this story in my head on paper, I dont have it in me to do it right now.

Right now my personal life is taking center stage for me and I doubt very much that I will be posting anything on here for quite a while. I wish all the luck in the world to the wonderful people I met on this site. And I hope your lives are filled with happiness. One day I might start again and post on this site. But for now consider this account suspended if you haven't already

Goodbye, Au Revoir, Sayonara everyone.